Fat again???
Hey chicas, loves of my life, best friend, apples of my eye, the yins to my yang, you guys got the point of how much i love you?? haha
So its been awhile since ive touched base with ya'll (my homage to britney). First and foremost, my diet! haha So last week was my last weigh in with my nutritionist because i only lost one pound the last week but i lost 3percent body fat. She doesnt want me to get less than 122 but im like, "of course, you are totally right." NOT!! Hello, if i can get to 115, i will! that was my mindset. Yes i was proud to have lost 13 pounds in 4 weeks and yes i was proud that i could finally eat some carbs without feeling guilty. That was wednesday..by thursday, i was eating a pint of ben and jerrys. YES, i speak the truth when i say i was eating so much chocolate, ice cream and carbs this weekend, john was laughing at me. NO JOKE! I thought i could moderate and this was a new lifestyle for me. I definitely overestimated my will power. I bought 3 small cakes because anna and eric invited john and me over for dinner on friday night. I was thinking that if i only bought small cakes, i wouldnt overeat. The cakes were like a gateway drug..I swear because by saturday, i bought low fat ice cream sandwiches and they were done by sunday morning. All of them! By the way, i swear if you guys ever tell anyone i will kill you but has anna and eric ever heard of salt or pepper?? They made us beef skewers marinated in beer to make it soft. well after that, you need to put some salt or pepper or some type of seasoning on it..Yes, it was healthy but it was bland as hell. I was putting so much gochujang on the suckers that my butthole hurt the next day! haha
Needless to say, after a weekend of ice cream, tons of cereal, bread, chosun galbi (damn rice is good), cheetos..Yes, i ate things i normally dont even eat this weekend, I am fat again! So i need to start eating healthy again but with carbs now. So i get to have bran cereal and whole wheat stuff..i need to moderate my bad sweets..like limit them to a couple times a week..
Anyhow, here is the job update..so not last thursday but the thursday before, I was dying..I had to finish up tom's clothes for his press tour for his next movie. I literally worked for days without sleeping. DAYS! i felt bad because arnold was in town and i couldnt even see him because i was running around like a scientologist crazy person! Anyhow, i was done with that specific project by monday because that was when the jet left with his items. But by then, i hadnt slept before 4am at all so i couldnt sleep. I was up all night. I mean all night. Then every couple hours, john wakes up saying, "omg, you havent fallen asleep yet? Try to sleep."
DUDE, annoying! YES, this was my plan. i was thinking, id rather just sit there and stare at my dark ceiling then sleep. YEs john, yes..I wasnt trying these past 7 hours to sleep!
Needless to say, by thursday, i took a sleeping pill. Then i couldnt wake up on friday and saturday and sunday and today! But weird thing is last night i had a hard time sleeping because i stopped taking tylenol pm.
As for job, i now have one more project left for tomkat. Their new house closet. OK, you guys can not tell anyone this secret. I should sell this for money! anyhow, the kids with nicole, Bella and connor, are not living with tom anymore. And they arent living with nicole. I know this doesnt seem big, but its HUGE! the new house isnt that big. its whatevers..And the design is horrible! horrible! literally, i dont know if they choose to hire dumbass architects but they sure did hire dumbass architects. Who puts a toilet behind where the headboard of the bed will be! i cant even start to list the problems of the house without just cracking up. Tods- i dont start til the end of the month in the office. I know amanda is back from her honeymoon but im scared to talk to anyone because i know that means shes getting fired soon. whatever, she did bad stuff but still right after your honeymoon is a bad time to find out that you are losing your job!
So i went to visit my manager on friday because her assistant, who does all my dirty work like finding out stuff about auditions etc, left! it was his last day on friday. I am totally annoyed because now i have no one to trust there. do you remember the show that i went to producers for? its an awesome awesome show by the creators of alias..its like an alias meets bourne. well it turns out that the producers just dont think im the girl. which sucks cuz casting thought i was..they want to keep me for possibly the lead bad girl..which really really really sucks because Heaven, the lead protagonist, is an amazing amazing emmy award wining part..i really hope that they change their minds..
BRITNEY SPEARS- did you watch her performance?? i had to stop it in the middle because i felt so bad for her. She was tripping all over the stage and doing everything so halfhearted. My heart hurt to watch it. DAMN RHIANNA, laughing at britney! yes brit brit is nutz but she is britney..
johns been working weekends too to set up projects before the strike. its very AHN TAK GUH WUH. did you guys get that? Its hard to think that he might be out of a job for 1 year or alittle less than 1 year. I think he would go nutz during that time. but he is helpless...its not like anything he can do can stop the strike.
I went to jin patisserie the other day with caroline, my director of pr at tods in ny. She was visiting and i had some of the macaroons. DAMN they were good. better than boule..i wish i could share some with you guys!
Susie lee?? china=communist=visa! does she not know that?? i cant say anymore about that situation..or i can but i wont..
love you all!
